Got Mail

She’d stopped checking for mail a long time ago. Handwritten letters were now in the same list as dinosaurs, flip phones and Orkut. That’s why she was taken aback when she saw a letter sticking out of her mailbox while returning from work.

It could only be from one person. Him. Only he knew how to catch her off-guard, make her feel like no one else ever did; even after all this time. She took a deep breath and grabbed the letter.

She let herself in, dropped the letter on the coffee table and went to the bedroom. She took a shower, wore her nightclothes and came out. She went to the kitchen, put the coffee pot on and took out the chocolate cookies. Now was not the time to ration. All this while, she was acutely aware of the letter being there, like it had a heart of its own.

She didn’t know if she was trying to postpone opening it or if she was waiting for some kind of feeling to kick in. She had thrown his memory away in the endless dark depths of her heart. To bring it to surface would be going back in time, breaking the dam she had so deftly created and letting the memories flood her conscious again. So all she felt right now was annoyed.

This was the first letter he’d ever written to her. You need a certain kind of courage to put your feelings down in writing. He never had that, until now apparently. As for her, he’d featured in all her journal entries since the day she met him till the day she realized the redundancy of it all. Plus there were several letters. Few she gave him and few she kept for herself; about things she would never tell him and things he would never know. So it was her million words against his, she was guessing, two fifty.

Finally, when the coffee was ready, and there wasn’t really anything else left to do; it was time to open the letter. She had a mad urge to play Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony on the music system. But as she scanned through the letter, she was glad she didn’t. The letter was highly anti-climactic. Actually if she ever wrote an autobiography, it would be titled anti-climactic.

The letter was everything a letter is supposed to be; heartfelt, well phrased, funny at the right places, and ending on a hopeful note. Timing was the only problem. It was a bit too late. There were apologies she’d long given up on receiving, there were confessions of mistakes she had long forgiven him for, there were questions about second chances and she was no longer a person who could answer those. She was almost disappointed. In him for being so… ordinary; and in herself, for having let go so easily when at one point she’d claimed she never could.

But the coffee still tasted glorious, there were three more chocolate cookies to go before the jar was empty and if not Beethoven, there was still time to play some Top 40.

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I Know You, You Know Me

You meet a person. You connect. You start talking, start keeping in touch. You hangout. You can tell that you really like this person. It doesn’t have to be a romantic interest, just you-are-my-kind-of-a-person thing. It’s wonderful; the beginning of the journey of getting to know someone closely.

When it comes to people, there are these milestones, that when crossed, bring you closer without fail. I feel like I can’t really know a person, or a person can’t really know me until we check these milestones off. Maybe it’s just a personal thing and you are getting the what-is-she-talking-about feeling. But hey, it’s my blog. So here’s a list anyway. I’ve added fancy GIFs too! *pats self on the back*

  1. Wanderlusting

    More often than not, travel brings out the best and worst in people. And you definitely need to know a person’s best and worst if you want to be close. Plus it’s a joy to observe how someone reacts to new sights & sounds and how it changes their dynamics with you. Want to know someone better? Travel with them. Go book tickets now!

  2. The Sleepover Club



    I’m not suggesting any kind of hanky-panky business (although that does allow you to really ’know’ someone). How you start and end your day is such an important part of who you are. Going to sleep and waking up might sound mundane, but it tells you a lot about a person. I’m not, at any point, suggesting you watch that person sleep. That’s creepy (believe me, I know).

  3. Picture Perfect



    This one might sound stupid. But hear me out (read me out?) okay. My pictures with people I’m not very close to turn out to be very awkward. I guess it’s simple; your equation translates into the picture. So when do I know I’m cool with you? When we have great pictures together.
    Also, if ever our connection falters, the photos act as a visual proof of what we had. Otherwise it just makes it that much easier to pretend that we never had a connection in the first place.

  4. Cry Me A River



    I look at crying as a very personal thing. So I don’t let just anyone see me cry. Similarly, when someone is crying when I’m around, I take it as a responsibility; you trust me enough to be that vulnerable in front of me. And nothing tells you more about a person than seeing how they are when they’re sad and how they handle it when you’re sad.

  5. Family First



    Seeing how someone is around their family can range from hilarious, tragic, heart-warming to downright shocking. You’ve seen nothing till you’ve seen how one behaves when with family.

  6. The Elixir Of Life



    This had to be on the list, right? However clichéd it might be, it doesn’t get any more honest than being downright drunk. No I’m not talking buzzed, tipsy, or happy high. I’m talking drunk drunk. If they tell you they love you while they’re drunk, believe it.

  7. Hello… It’s Me



    Contrary to Ted Mosby’s theory, I’ve had some of the best and most insightful conversations after 2 a.m. There’s nothing like defying the societal laws of acceptable sleeping hours together, journeying into the unknown world of nonsense and the profound at 4 in the morning. Somehow people seem more interesting at night, or is it just me?

That’s all folks! (No GIF for this, too much was happening)

p.s. – This is not a definitive (or a very serious) list. If you have additions, do tell.